How I Create My Life

I got it! Had it all along, really. It is about my perspective. What I saw as "intrusive" thoughts were actually "programmed" thoughts emanating from false core beliefs. Furthermore, what I saw as "unwanted" thoughts were "wanted" but not in the sense that I understood "want". Rather, they were only a byproduct of those false core beliefs and by holding onto the false core belief I was, in essence, "wanting" them. The weight of those lies I believed was pulling me down into a lower energetic state. A self-fulfilling cycle of negativity. Finally, my fears that my negative thoughts were manifesting into the world as war, pain, suffering, etc. were true and by taking responsibility for my part in creating these things, I could finally take responsibility for my own beliefs, thoughts, feelings, and actions by "choosing" to believe the truth of who and what I am. Thus a simple direction to "Be the change you want to see :)" as Alison states above, finally makes sense. My life makes sense, I could not have experienced who I am if I had not experienced who I am not.